Britney at the ESPYs
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It’s been a while since I’ve seen Britney. The first time I saw her you could feel her “it” as soon as she stepped out of the car. That was her time. No one could deny that she had that superstar quality. The last few times I’ve seen her, well, it was dead eyes and not so fresh. Last night? To be honest, the makeup wasn’t great in person. It doesn’t look great in these photos either. You see that wrangler with the checked shirt and khaki pants? She held his hand down the red carpet. She always needs someone to hang on to. And he kept talking to her throughout, maybe talking her through it.
But her eyes were a lot more focused than they were before. And even though she definitely needed the emotional support, there was more purpose in her stride too, compared to how fragile she seemed even a couple of years ago, although she’s just not as comfortable as she used to be when she’s exposed. At the height of her success, she lived for it. You can see it even in the difference between the posing. When Britney was younger, she owned the photo wall. She held the camera straight on, no hesitation. I wonder whether or not she’s now building back up to that, or whether this is just how it will be now. This is the aftermath of child stardom. They exist in a spotlight for so long, during those formative years, and then that spotlight becomes f-cking terrifying to them.