Kristen says his name
Kristen Stewart covers T. As we’ve observed in Kristen over the last year or so, she’s been increasingly open in her interviews, less resentful of having to do them, more eager to participate in the process, in the ecosystem that is Celebrity. As she explains it, she had to find the question first. And then begin to solve it:
“How do you feel like you’re not being stolen from yet at the same time guard yourself to the point of depriving yourself so much goodness in life?” Her search for the answer led to many sleepless nights, which was itself a lesson. “Nothing killed me,” she says. “I was skinny as hell, I looked crazy, but I was fine. I now have faith in my body to carry on, and that has made me a better actor.”
That’s probably my favourite quote of hers in this piece, if not of the last few years. I like the confidence behind those words: I am a better actor. And I like too that she’s figured out that the “guard” she was referring to mirrored her fragility. If one was lowered, what would happen to the other side? She’s figuring out what that balance feels like, and it looks good on her. Now that the walls are coming down, as she puts it, the perspective has changed:
“I want so badly to expose myself. I want to be understood and I want to be seen, and I want to do that in the rawest, purest, most naked way I can.”
It’s a good interview, she’s willing to share, and none of her quotes are bland or automatic. Kristen is deep. Like so deep it almost makes me happy to be so shallow. Because to get this deep requires a lot of thinking. Self-thinking. And I know I’ll never get there because I’m just too mind-lazy.
That said, Kristen’s sharing may be coming 3 years too late for some, after the breaking of Robsten. It was impossible for her then though because, as she describes it, that relationship became so big it folded in on the two people who were in it:
“People wanted me and Rob to be together so badly that our relationship was made into a product. It wasn’t real life anymore. And that was gross to me. It’s not that I want to hide who I am or hide anything I’m doing in my life. It’s that I don’t want to become part of a story for entertainment value.”
OMGGGGGGGGGGGG SHE SAID HIS NAME!!!!
Of course you know that there are some serious TwiHards who are very serious about the conspiracy theory that Kristen and Robert Pattinson are actually still together, married, and raising two secret children that she birthed while we were looking but not really seeing.
Now that she’s spoken his name out loud, for the first time in a long time, this will give them life. It’s her way of sending him an open Valentine, never mind that she follows up her comments about “Rob” with an unadulterated gush about girlfriend Alicia Cargile:
“Look how cute she is. I love her so much. I would never talk about any of my relationships before, but once I started dating girls it seemed like there was an opportunity to represent something really positive. I still want to protect my personal life, but I don’t want to seem like I’m protecting the idea, so that does sort of feel like I owe something to people.”
And this is exactly why those conspiracy theories are so troubling. I mean the crazy is entertaining, for sure. But to willfully believe that Kristen Stewart is faking it as a lesbian in order to hide her true and straight love isn’t just lunacy, it’s nefarious, it’s dismissive, and it’s insulting.
Click here to read the full piece on Kristen Stewart in T.